Thank you so much for your kind words about little Tortellini. I feel a lot better today though I have my moments. Last night we looked at the website of the same breeder where we got Tammy, to see if she had any available kittens. Well there was just one girl, a seal point (the original coloring I was looking for) mixed with a tortie(what I fell in love with). I emailed the breeder and she got back to me right away letting me know she was ready to go home.
Ed and I talked about it and agreed she was precious and still really did want a kitten and playmate for Tammy. I posted on the sphynx forum I'm a member of asking if I was a horrible person for "replacing" her so quickly. All the kind responses made me feel so at ease with our decision. I had a lot of love ready to give to a kitten, and it doesn't mean I loved little T any less. It does feel strange to be excited to meet her while still feeling very sad. I still have some questions about little T but it's neither her nor there at this point, life is short and I dont want to dwell on a situation I have no control over. If there would be an upside to this the way the breeder is acting right now I feel like I dodged a bullet.
On a much happier note she got a clean bill of health from the vet today, and we pick her up from the airport on Monday. I can't believe it. It just seems meant to be, I really couldn't have gone through the anxiety of waiting for months and thinking at any moment something could go wrong. I have complete faith in Tammy's breeder and she's been nothing but professional. Ooo also her and Tammy will be real sisters! they have the same dad. I'm so excited to see them together<3
These are her most recent photos, look at those aqua eyes<3
Thank you all again for your support.
Edit: I didn't realize I had this one, I think this is a stage between the first and the last two photos.