Wednesday, February 08, 2012

Oh Facebook

You make make me hate people on a regular basis.

What started as me being happy to see an unexpected image from a member of our extended family turned into my feeling upset but then trying to express myself honestly and I thought you might want to read it and it may give someone a bit of perspective. If it doesnt I dont want to know and you can keep your bogus shit to yourself.



  That was the image I shared. I woke up to a comment Ed's aunt or uncle left I only saw "abortion", "300,000" and "killing babies" and deleted it immediately and made the image private before I could get too upset.
 
  Later on after I got into an argument on the page of the actual image with a younger girl. I got really pissed! Why a young girl in this day and age would actively try to limit her rights as a human being is beyond me. I usually hate confrontation, talking about politics, i.e anything that could make me mad. I prefer to be happy. I told her I hope she never makes a mistake while she's young, gets pregnant after being raped or has a life threatening pregnancy. I felt better after that, we all need to be a little blunt and snarky at some point. Anyway it led me to post this status update:

"Jeeze people make me sick! and just so I'm not "vague booking". If you are anti pro choice just delete me please. I dont want to hear your opinions. Take your christ like attitude somewhere else <--sarcasm."


That was followed by a very nice and understanding comment from a facebook friend:


The farther along my pregnancy gets, the more pro-choice I get. I love my son so much, that I feel no one who doesn't want to have a child should be forced to carry one to term, nor should anyone be forced to be born into a world where they are unwanted or doomed to suffer for any reason at all


Then I just felt like sharing a little bit:


 I agree 100% When I was pregnant it was well and good for people to look down on me and judge me but I dont think any of them would have helped me raise a child. I feel like I owe a lot of what I have to Planned Parenthood because of my right to choose what I do with my life, that includes Ed's life too. I highly doubt we would be together or that he would have achieved all he has if we were parents at 15 & 19. aside from all of the other reasons that the argument ticks me off just the simple fact that anyone cares what anyone else does with their life, what they do with their body who they love,etc. life is hard enough! pay attention to your own...ya know?


I think a lot people who are anti pro choice dont stop and think how hard it is to actually make that decision. I think it's very rare that anyone makes the decision lightly if they are of sound mind. My life would have been extremely hard if i had a child, but not having it came with a whole other ball of wax, a depression that lasted on and off for 4 years, the fact that i'm 27 and the word abortion makes me feel sick still, that some assholes can ruin my day and hurt a very sensitive place in me with one stupid comment. Anyway I try to be as honest as I can but some people are just...human? I once was was having a heartfelt conversation with a girl who said she had to have an abortion because her baby's ultrsound showed it had no head, I tired to be comforting and shared my experience that I was still deeply in, she looked at me and said,"but i wanted my baby"...that hurt so much. i wanted my baby too, I still do but i wasnt and am still not ready. Years later I found out the reason her baby didnt have a head was because she was doing drugs... I'm the monster? blah



Anyways, that's how my nights gone. I'm so happy I'm at a place where I can talk about these things and not feel ruined. there was a time where I felt like my life wouldn't start until I had a baby, a strange very strong mental and biological feeling. I am so happy that we have waited, that if we do decide to have a child it will get my very all that I have to give. They will have a mother and a father, a home, nutritious food, and all the time and attention they need from us. Probably a really goofy name too! but we really don't know yet, and I think that's good. Its a HUGE decision the hugest! too many people take being a parent too lightly maybe they dont realize they have a choice?

So that's how I feel about that. Please dont leave a comment if you disagree with me I've had enough of that!


Monday, February 06, 2012

February photo a day challenge

So I don't forget!!


1. My view today #febphotoaday
(my view)

2. Words #febphotoaday  new banner by @nearsightedowl !
(words)

Jealous Tommy!!

(hands)

4. A stranger #febphotoaday
(a stranger)

5. 10am (it's actually 4pm, we're dead to the world at 10am, ask our family :P #febphotoaday
 (10am- it's actually 4pm, we're dead to the world at 10am, ask our family :P)

Thursday, February 02, 2012

I am so excited!

 I am getting a whole new blog design from Rachele!! She designed my shop ad for her blog and right when I saw it i was like, "ya know what? let me leave this blog stuff to a pro". I love her style so I am so so excited to have a nice cohesive design. I was so surprised, around a month ago, I woke up super early and couldn't sleep, got on the computer to catch up with some blogs and I came across this post. I was very touched and really happy to see my new name :D


I immediately knew what photos she was referencing! 
My etsy shop is already a billion times happier :D


 In other news Cricket is home and resting comfortably. We found out she is very sensitive to anesthesia and must always have her blood pressure closely monitored while she is under. I am beyond glad we switched vets when we did! When we went to pick her up no one wanted her to leave and I'm wondering if someone was cuddling her the whole time because on the way home I smelled an odd smell and my lap was very warm. She peed ALL OVER me! Maybe she just relaxed when I was holding her... So far she's been sleeping all night except for getting up once and wandering around, i picked her up and put her by the litter box and she quickly stumbled in. Just a little more pee was all, I'm glad my fur mom instinct kicked in :) 


I am completely dragging today...it's that time of the month where I am happy we live super close to an ice cream parlor.

I have way too many instagram photos of banana splits :x


Off to work after I heat up the ol Keurig<3

A little catch up

I'm feeling much better about blogging and the internet overall, I miss blogging regularly and today was the first day in a long time I felt like catching up.

Last week Indie Game: The Movie won  won Best Editing within the Sundance World Cinema Documentary Competition!! So awesome!  You can read all about it here and if you're going to be at SXSW can get in on a screening. If you're in the Bay Area there's going to be a special screening  on March 2nd at The Rio Theater in Santa Cruz with a Q&A with Ed and Tommy afterwards, plus it will be Ed's 32nd birthday<3<3 It's going to be an amazing night! If you would like to join us get your tickets now because they wont be sold at the door!
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A few weeks ago we went to our favorite ceramic painting establishment with Tommy and Shannon. I painted a utensil holder in a sea theme :)

Ed channeled his high school self and painted this poor demented cookie mug!!


Today we stopped by the fabric store, Beverly's has the best fleece in the remnants section :D I can't wait to make some Beaverlings out of this stuff.


I got my girls new black wigs. I particular love my Jerry Berry with a black wig.


Lastly we dropped Cricket off at the vet at 4am, she'll be spayed around 7am. This is the first time we have taken in one of the cats to be fixed on time. I absolutely hated to leave her there. Ed was great and the nurse was so nice. As we were walking out I told her I loved her and the nurse said,"she knows you do". Something about that just made me feel so much better. Please send some loving thoughts her way<3 I'll update you on her surgery as soon as we get her home.


p.s. There's a few new things in the shop.